princess*

Tuesday, August 19, 2003

kk.. now my blog is woking.. i m still fretting bout everithing.. i juz dun understand myself @ times... dunnoe y... but yar... i m feeling damn down.. no one interesting to tok to... no one to confide to... how i wish i haf a true fren.. juz one.. for me to confide everithing to... all i m asking is juz one TRUE one.. i dunnoe.. but i haf dis feeling tt smth is to be taken away fr me.. it juz dis feeling.. i mean i am having like a tonne of worries.. n now.. my damn lungs are giving me probs... whenever.. i cough.. my whole chest is in pain.. i think i m going to die soon... but i dun wanna die young... i still got alot of undone stuff.. so if i get some shit disease.. i muz survive.. i muz pull thru no matter wad.. i @ least muz be able to go cambridge n do my degree... n it is like.. i haf yet to represent singaporein debate n sailing.. i think 4 debate... i muz go n fufil tt dream of mine... no matter how much time it takes.. i m uz go the distance... as for sailing.. sighx... i m improving but @ a damn slow rate... next round is yr end... damn long.. now i cant pull my results up... sheesh.... y m i thinking tt i m dying soon?? now tt my dad is hospitialised.. i dunnoe wad to sae.. juz now @ the docs, my mum asked bout my dad condition..n the doc think tt daddy's condition is serious.. i mena like.. my sis is onli 3?? i dunnoe.. i doubt i can sleep tonight.. but yar... ok.. i muz go n sleep liaoz... nite.. p.s. i realli wish i haf juz one true fren.. all i need is one... not two...

Melissalost in [[fairytale]]-land
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