princess*

Tuesday, August 19, 2003

dunnoe to be happy or sad... exams r over.. shld be enjoying.. but den my dad is hospitalised... suspected punemonia... if not den severe bronchitis... but tt will still lead to punemonis.. so wads the diff??? still serious wad... i juz hope tt we can pull thru lorhx.. i mean i cant imagine life w/o my dad... wen my mum tld me tt it is @ least sever bronchitis.. i cld feel the tears in my eyes.. i was like trying so freaking hard not to cry in front of my mum coz i noe tt if she sees me crying.. she will cry too... i m juz hoping tt a miracle will happen n let my dad be ok... if not on medication forever osos can... den the stupid gp...asked my dad if we r in financial difficulties... sae my dda no need go gleneagles coz it is ex.. etcetc.. i mean.. like hulloo??? wad does he mean?? i mean like all my family specialist all in gleneagles... like my dad's hand doc to my mum's qyane to my sis's peadeatrician.... ok.. nvm bout tt doc.. all i need is a miracle.. den tt stupid fucked up julius sae my dad got cancer.. i m using the f word onli becoz.. he went over the limit liaoz... i mean like wad he means by tt lorhz? cursing my dad isit? even if he dun like me... dere is no need to curse my dad... ok.. now he apologize... i dunnoe wad to say lar... juz cant believe tt i got tjis kind of friends.. i mean r pple like him even frens lorhx?? i m juz feeling damn.. i dunnoe wad to say... anyway.. i went for the hillsong concert.. it is damn nice.... den i was like studying lit while waiting.. den the j2s were like no need to study.. den dere was dis guy tt said i m having my a prelims tmr.. n i m not worried.. i was like so shocked... i dunnoe.. i seem to be a bad daughter... i mean like my dad is in hospital n i m toking bout a concert i went to... wads wrong wif me?? n the most worrying thing is tt i m coughing like nobody's business.. i hope i did not get it fr my dad.. on the way home i was like imagining my dad'a funeral.... i eman like i noe i shldnt be so pessimistic.. but yar... i started to tear in the car.. n den my mum also started to sniff ... i noe.. she was juz controlling herself.. god.. pls give my mum strength.... n me too.. n my entire family... den my mum asked the specialist wad actually happened.. n the doc said tt we might all haf been exposed to it.. tts y my sis is running a high fever n me is coughing like nobody's business.... the doc tld my mum to watch out 4 me..n den wen my mum tld me tt.. the next thing was tt i imagined my own funeral... i dunnoe lorhx... i need strength.. esp during this periods.. pple... pls pray for my family kz?? no matter hu u believe in... god or buddha... pls pls juz pray for us kz?? i need a miracle... i m going to see my doc now... if smth goes wrong.. i think i might be admitted.. so pls pls pray kz?? i need a miracle..

Melissalost in [[fairytale]]-land
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