princess*

Tuesday, September 02, 2003

i m thinking of giving up.. i mean like it seems like a so near yet so far kind of thing.. i dun even think he noes that i exsist sometimes lorhx.. sigh.. maybe i shld do wad weiling said but den... i dun think i af tt amt of courage and i m fearful of the outcome... i dunnoe lar.. i m thinking of giving up n u noe like find somone more 'reachable' in the sense.. i eman like i hardly see him n even if our paths cross, we hardly tok.. so i dun think i shld carry on carrying a torch for him.. i do not even noe if he is attached lorhz... sighs... maybe i shld juz pretend tt it was a dream.. or maybe a "fantasy" sigh... will sleep over it tonight lar.. n will see how things go.. hopefully he starts to notice me.. well maybe tts all i can pray for.. sighs.. i dunnoe.. i shall juz pretend tt he neva exsisted @ all.. i dunnoe lar.. will ponder over it after my exams.. speaking of tt.. my dad wants me to study an hour a dae lorhx... i mean like hullo?/ ct was juz over.. sigh... no choice.. ha.. i might be moving house again.. haha... will get my grand den.. cant wait... ha.. den i will oso get a bigger cupboard n i muz get a bigger room too.. oh.. anw.. i will haf a tv in my room.. ha... so happy.. dad said so.. den my bro is jealous... haha.. coz in front of my bed is this huga wall.. so my dad will get me a plasma tv i think... i will get the silver one,.. if i haf a choice.. but will see when the time comes.. tt means scv in my room.. haha... cant wait

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