princess*

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

i m confused... damn confused... bout every darned thing... fr relationships to frens to my famliy to sch to sailing to sighs practically everything lar.. is dere anything called perfect or perfection?? how come pple's life seems so damn perfect but mine is utterly screwed.. relationships tangles is smth tt is always in my life.. isit coz i m unable to handle em or wad?? juz -urgh- is happening to me? i thought tt after the exams i will be able to find freedom n stuff.. not tt i dun haf freedom but the thing is tt my life is screwed so wad is freedom? it is nth but a waste of time onli... sigh i can NEVER get problems out of myself n i think i am also causing pple troube... forget i lar.i wont b the nic girl who trys to please everyone anymore... n i m like having aot of funy n screwed up dreams for the pas few days.. n i will always wake up crying ad den i wont b ble to sleep i always haf the same dream but i am so afraid tt it will hapen juz ike wad happened a few yrs back.... i juz dun want it to.. i m so afraid... i tried pray.. a certain sense of reief but then still.. dnno n dreas r supposed to be visions of smth tt will happen in future juz lie tt dream i had... i juz dun want it to happen pray for me ks? -hugs-

Melissalost in [[fairytale]]-land
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