sometimes, i wonder if you are my friend or foe.
you probably wont be reading this and i need an avenue to rant.
so there.
when its just the 2 of us or even the 2 of us in a big group
we seem so close
from the outside we look like perfect friends
but deep down you are a stranger friend
whom i fear.
i fear letting you know my problems and all
i dunnoe why.
maybe its because whenever we hang around a certain someone i feel rather left out and excluded.
or maybe its because the conversations we share are rather superficial and shallow
sometimes i get the feeling you are materialistic
from the wierd qns you ask. i dunnoe how to phrase this nicely.
but yeah from the outside we seem perfect. but deep down
i wonder if you feel the way i do.
with such recent developments, i just pray that somehow things will work out.
in fact, i think that is all that i can and will do.
i know i should not be saying this but i just cant help it.
but i think for now. i will distant myself from you.
and see if things fall in place.
somehow i am just unwilling to take a pro-active approach in this
sometimes i understand where you are coming from
but many of your insecurities are uncalled for.
really. so there.
i need time to understand you and hopefully, things will work out from there.
