princess*

Sunday, June 25, 2006

again its close to 2 am and i cant sleep. i have been thining and thinking. and thinking. and i realise sometimes i spend too much time thinking that i have no time left to do my work. the hols are ending. sch is starting in less than 30 hours and i have a heck lot of work undone. not much studying done. sailing is shit. cts are coming so are interschools. its a mess. both inside and outside.

Lord, grant me the strength to pull through all these. and whilst trying my best to juggle these, i pray that you will see me through all these. i know you will but please be constantly by my side. Amen

i need to get my faith back on track. i need to improve in sch, sailing, cooking and learning a new instrument. i have decided that it would be the violin. but for now, lets just be short sighted and hope that i will be able to pull through this month. come what may, i hope i will be able to meet the challenges and i cant wait till interschools are over. the pressure is building when its just supposed to stop. what is the world coming to? i dunnoe. but i know with the absence of 4mian8fang and you in school and in my daily life now, its hard to get by. but somehow i will find a way to pull through this. i know i will and i can. SMILE=) its a beautiful world out there. sometimes, i have this strong urge to just stay up through the night and sit on the roof and read du maurier/do something productive under the starry starry yet moonless sky. how utterly sweet. i think its a crescent thing. the impulse tendancies i always have. like wanting to go to a park at 2 am in the morning and actually doing so. ALONE. okay SMILE MELLY SMILE. iop beckons. tata

Melissalost in [[fairytale]]-land
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