i figured (with help from xinling and soonks) that the worst part about missing someone is

• wondering if that person is thinking of you too ( to me thats the hardest ?
• wondering how the person is coping without you
• wondering if that person is fine

however, we will always be under the same sky, stars and moon and feel the same breeze. till then, i guess i will have to cope without you. i hope i am doing fine. maybe its because life is rushing past in a haste and i dont stop to take notice and keep check. but i think i am doing fine and i hope you are doing fine too. till we meet again which i hope will be soon, i wish you all the best and hope that you will do fine. and if you need anyone to talk to, just remember that i will always be here. i am always ready to relive those days where we would talk on the phone for hours non stop about the most random stuff. even the sort of silence which we share over phone, just knowing each other is there and all. just know God will never forsake you and that i will always be here for you too.

okay that was meant for 2 pple. the front part for someone who will never read this. the second part was for someone whom i used to be close to real real real close. but it was a friendship that went wrong. what went wrong i guess i would never know except guess. i apologise for all my short-comings and i guess i did not make enough time for you recently cause of school sailing and all. i am sorry i did not meet your expectations. i apologise for all my shortcomings. i hope your life will be better off without me.