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Saturday, June 24, 2006

its freaking 130am in the morning now. and i cant sleep. i simply cant. i tried. i have been thinking through stuff. loads of stuff. in life in general. notice how uncanny it is. i always have these random thinking seesions on fri nights. maybe its the weather, the circumstances of the day, or maybe its just fri or maybe its me. i think its me. i have been thinking of you, you, you and you. 4 of you all. in some way or another has made an impact on me. esp the latter. you have been an integral part of my days in crescent. you were the one who hugged me and consoled me when i was unsuccessful in gylc initially. you were the first one i went crying too. damnit, you were the first person whom i actually broke down to. and prob the last who i will cry to and share so freely as i did. life is diff now and i miss the crescent days. you and the clique and c3 totally made my secondary school days the best days of my life. life here in ac is so diff in comparison and in fact it sucks not being able to see those whom i hold so dear on a daily basis like before. i thought i was adapting well in ac. moving on like how i tell my friends to. to cherish our crescent memories and to embrace the future and whatever it hold for us. but it is eaiser said than done. life sucks i know. it sucks for you as it much as for me. behind my facade i have my fair share of problems and worries too. i am sure everyone has this problem. i just want you to know i prob know what you are trying to get over. and i know what as asshole he has been. but learn to forgive. even the bible tells us to love our enemies what more someone whom we had a broken relationship with. i know its hard. but somehow i hope and know that you will draw the strength from Him and within to overcome all these. i have absolute faith you can. i mean look at it this way. your determination is unquavering. like the way you mugged your ass off in dec while we were all playing. just to ensure you can take bio in jc. i mean i absolutely admire that strong-willed streak in you. we were all playing hard and yet you, continued to mug after Os. this alr shows that once you set your eyes on smth. i am positive that you will get there somehow. somehow, i know that your goal is right. but the route to it is just wrong. i know its eaiser said than done and i cant offer an alternative solution to it either. but i pray that you will find it soon and in the meanwhile. just hang on in there. its not that you cant see the light at the end of the tunnel but rather, you have already been blinded by it already. think about that. and for now, lets just communicate like that and see how things go. i think its the best temporary solution for the moment.

and then there is you and you and you and me. the 4 of us. i dunnoe what to say. i just hope things will fit in nicely and that i will be able to do what xinling told me. i think that was the bestest piece of advice this year. and without xinling i have absolutely no idea i will be able to pull through all this shit in ib. thanks darling. i love you loads thanks for being there! and i totally agree with xinling about the missing someone part. but jackson's take on it makes sense as well. go figure. maybe i should try looking at things from your point of view. but for now. i just one to be in the know. thats it. i did not mean for this to be a depressing entry. but whatever. screw it. i need to rant. but for now, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY SHERYL TEO WEN YUAN=) i love you loads and loads and loads and loads. your lameness never fails to amuse me and without you, my days spent in crescent would have been a waste of time. you guys totally rock my world. i am postively sure i rock your world too=)))) hahahahaha okayy have a blessed seventeenth birthday and i owe you cheesecake=) hahaha yay!

i cant wait for 150706 alr. and 220706. clique reunion and speech day! i like=)) term 3 seems to be a good term for my social life. all the crescent gatherings. however there is also alot of impt deadlines in term 3 to meet. iop and all arrgghh. heres to a bittersweet term.

cheers, melly

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