my head aches so bad now. arghh but i need to rant.

i think you are treating me like a spare tyre. i dunnoe if its accidentally or on purpose. on days when you like it, you ignore me and all. be cold and think that the world revolves around you only. and when you need help you come to me. its not that i am unwilling to help you. i am more than happy to help a friend solve her problems and all. but somtimes, look at things from my side as well. i am as boggled down by work as you are. who says ib is not taxing? ask anyone here in ib and they can vouch for the huge amounts of work we have. cca? i have sailing too. and you should know how i feel about my sailing. please stop thinking about nonsense and worrying about minor insecurities. exams? we all have them. but we should not let them put us down. i think this is getting extremely one-sided we need to try to strike a balance again. sometimes i think you are too demanding of the circumstances around you. and its placing unnecessary pressure on me as well in case you did not know. now, i dont even dare call you whenever i need someone to talk to. i know i will be brushed off with some lame excause like i need to study. i undersatnd that exams are important. but think about it, it WAS the HOLIDAYS. you had time to go out and paly and all as well. even on my birthday you refused to oblige. sometimes i wish i could figure out what the hell is going wrong with you.

or maybe its me. i think its the latter. either way i need a quick fix to this. a quick yet lasting fix. i pray that it will be granted soon