princess*

Saturday, July 22, 2006

i hate nights like this when things get the better of me and set me thinking. its that i do not like to think. but rather, its thinking about unpleasnt stuff. bad memories. and certain people have made me extremely angsty recently. and these are people whom i am supposedly close to. i cant stand having to put up a facade and tolerate your nonsense when it annoys me to no end and you think its fun and cool. i refuse to let you have fun at my expense when it comes to such issues. my friends may suan me, like the sailors and all. but you. you have absloutely no right to do so. its simply because your remarks are always extremely ridiculous. you think you know me damn well. but really, i think i dont know you at all. sometimes, i try to make myself change my opinion and look at you from another angle. but really i cant bring myself to do so. i know we are all in a new environment and time is needed for us to adjust. but there is really no need for you to feel so insecure about yourself and use me on the pretext of fitting in. and so stranger friend, that shall what i will call you. ironic isnt it? my stranger friend.
and so now, that was that. i still hate nights like this. i know i have a tonne of work waiting for me. but i absloutely refuse to budge and do any of it tonight. i need to stop procastinating and try to get things done tmr morning before meeting eugene. hopefully, i will just sit down and start on iop.
there are no stars tonight. maybe its a sign. oh well, i am feeling hungry. maybe instant noodles beneath the moonlight will cheer me up. its a beautiful night. smile and forget everything=) remember to always trust in Him. night world.

Melissalost in [[fairytale]]-land
12:55 AM