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Friday, August 18, 2006

i hate math portfolio. i went around singapore on a wild goose chase trying to find autograph. only to realise from xinling that there is this illegal thingy (a 30 day trial which will never expire). wth. all my efforts and money spent are wasted.

nonetheless, it was nice talking to my mum on the way searching and ranting to her about life and how school sucks. how we are loaded with homework and how i should just drop everything here and just leave the country and study in switzerland or hong kong or anywhere for that matter. but its too late now, term starts in september and its too late to find a college now i guess. i guess i will have to hang on in there then. its amazing how fickle my mum can get. i just found out today she is supportive of me going abroad. she used to tell me to wait till university. i wonder why the sudden change in mindset. perhaps she has been noticing that her darling daughter is too stressed up here over in acib. and figured that going somewhere else might do her some good.

but right now, its insane doing the dumb portfolio. i have been working at it for the past 3 hours, drawing a grand total of only 2 graphs. thats without the calculations. i think at this rate things are going, i will need caffine pills. 7 of them, one for every night of the coming week. just so that i can finish doing whatever there is to do. cambodia is stressing me up as well. and then there is business ia. though its only the presentation due, i have yet to sit down and think things through.

and then theres you. listening to leanne rimes isnt therepeutical when you are doing math portfolio and then i am reminded of you. i guess its wishful thinking on my part and i should have never gotten myself entangled with you right from the beginning. i hate it when you leave it hanging. its like i am left in the middle of nowhere and this sucks. thank god for the clique blog. yesterday, posting there took my mind off you for a moment and everything seemed perfect again. if only everything could have been perfect again. if only. but its okay. 3108. something to look forward to. i will bake and cook for it. simply because i know they will appreciate it and its rather therepeutical. the aroma of a near perfect cookie baking upstairs never fails to make me hyper. hopefully, things will work out over time. i need to learn how to be a feminist from hairin.

Melissalost in [[fairytale]]-land
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