princess*

Thursday, August 17, 2006

lets just say that its still a beautiful world out there, and i need to learn to appreciate that. its a beautiful and windy night tonight. and despite whatever that has happened, i know i have a wondeful bunch of pple comstantly watching over me, being there for me. and that is all that matters, perhaps that is all that matters. i dont know. and yes, i have been disappointed, terribly disappointed. but i wont shed tears over it. or at least i will try not to. but sometimes, i think its better to bawl it all out. and just like my favourite quote from tuesdays with morrie, its best to experience that emotion fully, before being able to detach from it. i guess thats what i am going to attempt to do now, the detach part without the bawling.

and now, i wonder, am i making the right decision. is this going to be another foolish and irrational mistake on my part? i dont know, perhaps i will never know. sometimes, i wish i never knew you existed, but on the other hand, then the fun times we had together would have never existed as well. but either way, if you are reading this, i think its me as well not you. maybe distancing myself from you will do us some good. i should have never noticed you right from the beginning, then maybe, we would not be in this predicament now. by saying all this, that does not mean i regret meeting you, i dont. but sometimes, i ask myself and wonder, are we both running away from the truth? but what is the truth? i dont know yours.

Melissalost in [[fairytale]]-land
9:52 PM