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Tuesday, October 17, 2006

stumbled upon enli's blog just now and this comment she wrote left me thinking and compelled to post an entry. enli wrote "over the years, we have all changed so much".

i guess the people who are in a better postition to observe this mega change in me over the years are my parents, siblings, joanne, enli, michelle and jacinta. since i have been living with my family all my life (DUH-UH), and have been good friends with joanne and enli since primary school and with michelle and jacinta, this connection goes all the way back to kindergarten. i still remember us being veryvery close and we were called the 3 musketeers by everyone around us.

but actually, i guess i am in the best position to observe all these. changes. i guess i have changed over the years. some good and some not so good. initially i wanted to document all the changes here and then i decided otherwise. i shall just keep it to myself and pray that i would never forget them.

somehow, while zul, fuiyi, beth, jane, hairin and i were talking about where we are going to live next time, i realised 2 things,

1) i am going to reside in singapore next time. no matter where my work and studies take me to, i know that one day, one very fine day, i will still come back here to start a family and bring them up. dont ask me why, but i just know that this is where home truly is. besides i wont be able to leave my family and the food here. 2 weeks in europe left me insanely desperate for some local food that i even had a dream about it. i will never be able survive without achar, chicken rice, laksa, satay and the list goes one. i know the thing i will miss the most when i go abroad to study next time would be my dad's preserved mangoes. they are the best=) i realised that food has become a main pull factor for me to stay here. it shows what a glutton i am. and gluttony is a sin. but i dont care.

2) i miss florida. i miss our aparment. i remember waking up in the morning and walking to my parent's room and everyone is still sleeping soundly. i would creep out of the bed me and eugene share and then tip toe silently into my parent's room. my dad would be snoring loudly and mummy would be fast asleep. i would then open the sliding door. but only a small part so the breeze would not disturb them and then somehow squeeze through that narrow gap and sit in the balcony watching the sun rise over the lake and watch the ducks arise and feed them bread that we always keep in the balcony for them. i would do that everyday when we stayed there and then when the sun is up, i will run into the apartment and then wake everyone up. those days were beautiful. work was not a factor which stopped any of us from travelling for extended periods of time, save for my dad of course. oh well, i guess as we all grow older, family holidays will simply get harder to schedule. perhaps we should have indeed listened to daddy and go to florida this year end. oh well.

Melissalost in [[fairytale]]-land
6:43 PM